A New Week

So here I am, writing once again. I may have failed in my FB cold-turkey cutoff, but I think this blog thing might work out.

I survived my first day back...and a Monday no less, after a week 1/2 hiatus due to surgery I had on the 9th. I haven't been gone from work that long since....never! It was weird. I didn't like it. I think that's part of what sent me into that weird mood. Thankfully my mood is a little bit better now that I am back on a regular schedule...and was able to exercise for the first time since the Tuesday before my surgery. That was the hardest part.

Tomorrow should be a little better. I'm hoping my mood is back 100%. Not that I want to get too personal here, but I struggle and have struggled with depression for a good portion of my life. Since I believe I was 14. And anyone who truly knows what depression is, knows what sort of hell it can be. I don't think there's a need to go into detail here, and quite frankly I'm afraid dwelling on it would just bring up the feelings I've been working hard at getting rid of. I'm not trying to ignore it. That's definitely not it. But I don't want to go over and over the horrid emotions and thoughts I was having especially since I know almost 90% of it was physical-nothing really external.

I'm hoping doing this blog will get me into a flow. Into a flow that I can transfer to my story, The Story, I've been working on for years. It's a story that really doesn't deserve or require years worth of work. It's just that I procrastinate and am one of those "writers" who need to be in the mood. I suppose that doesn't make me much of a writer. I should be able to snap in the mood when I want where I want. But alas, I am not. Maybe with this forcing of the blog I will awaken something. So far I'm not too impressed with the blog, but maybe it will get better with practice.