Burning the Candle at Both Ends

I don't like posting anything personal, because once it's out there it's out there for anyone to read. Sometimes I don't mind, but when it comes to showing my insecurities, that is one thing I don't like.

I am just so flustered lately. Working 7 days a week none stop is wearing me down. I love the film with a passion. Although I work 26 hours or more on set, when I am there I feel like there is a purpose. I might not see pay for awhile, but there is a reason I am there. I am contributing to a creative effort. No matter how hard it can get, I feel at ease. At my day job, I love everyone I work with and I love the benefits. I just feel that lately I am slacking (which is ironic because I've been putting in OT). I just feel like I could do more. Maybe I don't feel like I am putting my full effort into things and because of my job role transitioning to sales and recruiting, I am letting my ego get in the way. I went from having my own set of tasks while doing a little support, to full blown support and I feel like I may be resentful. I shouldn't feel like that. Even if I do feel like I am having too much pushed on me, I need to buck up. Work isn't my life, but it is a necessity to live it. I just need a moment to breath and start over. It's never too late to start everything over like it is brand new. I am just always afraid people are thinking I am lazy or not wanting to take orders. I would hate for someone to think that about me. I constantly feel like I am letting people down and I am just Miss Fumbles around doing half ass work and can't remember simple basic things. I don't want to be perfect, but I don't want my "best" to be less then everyone else.

How can I get out of this rut? I'm not complaining that I work 66 hours in a week. It's a necessity and it's what I gotta do. I just need to know how I can have passion with all that I do and have that fresh feeling.